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Hey Sebastian. Sebastians smile instantly fell as he laid eyes on Blaine, feeling his heart break in his chest. “Blaine,” he whispered, his hand reaching forward, almost as if he wanted to reach out to him. However, he resisted the urge, not wanting to overstep any boundaries. He stepped inside as he was waved in, carefully shutting the door behind him. He slowly turned to look the shorter male in the eyes, feeling his breath hitch in his throat. He had never seen Blaine like this before, and he never wanted to see it again. Blaine was normally so full of life, but now… he looked drained. Where was the happy, smiling, boy that Sebastian had fallen for months before?

Taking a deep breath, Sebastian slowly stepped forward, his hand reaching out to cup the other boys face. He didn’t know why he was doing it, but he was. He swallowed, his eyes glued to Blaines as his thumb carefully wiped away the tear stains on the others cheek. “You’re too pretty to cry,” he whispered jokingly, stepping even closer to the former Warbler. He licked his lips, the gap between the boys now completely closed. “I’ve missed you,” he mumbled under his breath again, his other hand moving up to grip Blaines shoulder. Without warning, he wrapped his arms tightly around his friend, pulling his body into his own.

“Everything’s going to be okay, Blaine,” he whispered into his hair, now rubbing small, soothing circles on his back. Despite what people said, Sebastian actually did have quite a big heart, and he cared about others; especially Blaine. Since the moment they had met, Sebastian had been drawn to him, and it broke his heart to know that nothing could ever happen between them. However, he was going to push his feelings aside and be there for his friend during his time in need. “You’re strong, and you’re going to get through this.” He nodded, slowly pulling back to look Blaine in the eyes. “Trust me.”

Normally Sebastian would sooner die then let someone see this side of him, but it was different with Blaine; it was always different with Blaine. Blaine Anderson was the only person that he had ever met that made him want to be better, after everything that had happened after Nationals. It had hurt that they hadn’t spoken in months, but Sebastian took the hint, he wasn’t wanted. Hell, he didn’t even know if he was wanted now, but he was going to be there for Blaine if he would let him.

“ That’s not how I feel.” Blaine muttered under his breath, his voice in a thick broken whisp. His face tilted upward, his cheek pressing even more against the pad of Sebastian’s thumb as the taller boy whipped his tears away- something he never thought Sebastian could( Rather then would or should, because come on, it was Sebastian.)  do.  As Sebastian stepped closer, Blaine was certainly feeling the heat of the other male’s body press against his own. The notion wasn’t fully unwelcomed, because Blaine found it nice to be in someone else’s arms for the comfort- even if those arms belonged to Sebastian Smythe. With a heavy sigh Blaine let his forhead fall against the taller male’s chest, burying his face in the soft fabric of his shirt. “ I missed you too.” He admitted with a weak flush; Maybe it was his pounding headache that lead him to saying those words, or maybe it was because he truly did miss seeing Sebastian’s mischievous green eyes. 

After a good few minutes of enjoying what comfort Sebastian could offer with a hug and few rubs to the back, Blaine finally settled in the male’s arms, relaxing. He felt his body give way as he yawned, relaying on Sebastian for support now. He was too weak to care anymore about Kurt, too hurt to let his heart have another  single thought about him. For now he just wanted to feel ..something other than darkness. But the pain was still there, slow and aching. But Blaine tried to ignore it, nuzzling his face into Sebastian’s chest.  He reached his arms around Sebastian’s back, clutching onto the fabric of his shirt with the tips of his fingers. ” It just..It just doesn’t feel that way, Sebastian. I don’t really think I can get through this.”he whispered, a bit frightened about the possibly of not being able to pull himself out of his hole. 

At first when Sebastian pulled back Blaine resisted, wanting to stay buried against the male. He glanced up to Sebastian with his wide brown eyes that were now showing a few subtle signs of life, vs the dead look he held when he first opened the door. ” Just….” He shook his head, this time being the one to initiate the hug by pulling Sebastian against him. ” I’m sorry about before, I..I honestly didn’t know what to do. ” Blaine had his face buried against Sebastian again, looking down at the floor. ” I was hurt about the slushie, but I really never hated you- Maybe for a few days..and..I’m sorry.” his voice cracked, a tear forming in his eye. ” I didn’t mean to hurt you by not talking to you, I just..never knew what to say after what happened.” 

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Sebastian couldn’t believe it, Blaine actually wanted him to come over; or at least was letting him. He had been iffy about interacting with the former Warbler at first, but who was he kidding? He cared about him, he always had… and Blaine needed someone. He grabbed a couple bottles of Jack, stuffing them into his backpack before making the drive out to Lima. It was getting dark by the time that he got there, and he slipped off his suglasses as he pulled into Blaines driveway.

Taking a deep breath, he slipped out of the car and headed towards the front door. He knocked twice, running a hand through his perfectly styled hair as he stepped back and waited to be greeted. Why was he so nervous? Probably because he hadn’t seen the other boy in months, and until yesterday, didn’t think he’d ever see him again. “Blaine?” He called softly, clearing his throat as he fished into his pocket for his phone.

Icky. Hazy. Heavy. Exactly what Blaine’s head was feeling at the current moment due to the ( Incredibly small ) amounts of alcohol he ingested. He’d missed school today, something that he had never done before: He had perfect attendance. The hang over wasn’t even the reason  why he stayed away from McKinley’s halls for the short school day, it was Kurt. Kurt: That name. Blaine couldn’t even think it without sniffling up and holding back a sob. The amount in which a heart could hurt was shocking and amounted up to more than just a sad song, which reminded him: How could people think heartbreak could be such good inspiration? Nothing about the last 24 hours had been inspiring. All the day’s been was one big stab in the chest.

Not to mention the sniffness in his bones, and the utter lack of excitement for anything. Not even coffee helped for the latter. He would assume actually getting out of bed would help the former, but he was too lazy to now. Or too depressed. It wasn’t fair that Kurt could just break things off so easily and be fine when Blaine felt like a mess. Groaning softly, Blaine pulled the covered over his head and tossed his phone to the side with a flick of his wrist. Rolling over, Blaine buried his face in the tear stained sheets for a few moments before pushing back the comforter  with a disapproving grunt as the cold air in the room wrapped around him. Painfully, he lifted his legs one by one over the side of the bed and forced himself to stand up. He winced, nearly toppling over as a sudden wave of nauseous washed over him. Last thing he needed was to get sick when someone was coming over.

Sebastian could actually be looked at as a blessing right now in Blaine hazel eyes. It was because of him that Blaine was making an effort to get out of bed in the first place and he should be happy for that. However, the pain still ebbed at his heart as he carried himself to the bathroom to  splash cold water on his face and see what he could do with his appearance. After a good few mintues, Blaine deducted that nothing much could be done about the bags under his eyes and his pasty complexion so he instead threw on the closest sweats and t shirt because he wasn’t in the mood to care anymore.He was done when he heard the knock at the door.

” Coming.” Blaine weakly called out, doubtful that Sebastian could hear him. Blaine winced at the sound of his own voice, sounding nothing like he usually did.  In an attempt to clear his throat Blaine coughed a few times as he made his way down the stairs and into the main hallway  of the rather lavish house while rubbing his eyes. He squinted, the sunlight hitting him square in the face as he opened the door for Sebastian. ” Hey, Sebastian.” his weak greeting was  accompanied with a little wave and a slouch in his posture. He looked completely drained and his eyes held no indication of the usually there bright puppy like sparkle.  ” Come in.” He offered, waving Sebastian inside.

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How could I be okay? The guy I thought I would marry and grew old with dumped me last night for some guy I don’t even know.

I really wish I could be more comforting… but you haven’t talked to me in months, Blaine. I’m sorry that you’re upset, I really am.

Just… forget I ever said anything.

Just…

Leave me alone. You’ve already caused me to loose the one person I held dear.

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coffeedrips-and-bowtieribbons replied to your post: Why?
Seasbasstiran, yyou hav…

I heard… I’m sorry, Blaine. I… know you really loved him…

I feel likse an old dsicarded brokewn toy

You’re not, fuck… can’t you call one of your friends?

I dont want to cry on the eye phosne

Just… call someone and ask them to come over, and be careful. I’d come, but you hate me… and would flip out when you’re sober.

i dont hatee yu.